Trying to fit in for the sake of fitting in is devoid of colour, of soul.
Through the noise of what the world tells us to focus on, real truths cut through like glass. Below are a few memories that reveal to me some undeniable truths about what makes for a life full of soul and colour.
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Memory 1: On the truth of our beauty
When my mother and father are happy or laughing, they sit on their hands on the couch, stick out their legs and shake them, toes twinkling. Their eyes twinkle along, their faces beam. I want to hold their cheeks in my hand forever, constantly tugging at them, receiving laughs or admonishment in return… and sometimes just a comfortable silence. I come alive with each of their laughs, curious looks, twinkly thoughts and toes.
I think - How lucky I am to keep both of these people with me, in the features that make up my lil face and body. Their beauty is self-evident to me, like their love - because of their love. Carrying my ancestors’ radiance with me, in my toes, it’s self-evident, just as it always will be:
I am undeniably gorgeous.
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Memory 2: On beauty through connection
I was recently heading to the movies with A Very Cute Boy, and we stopped at a light on the drive over. A fun song was playing on the radio. Very Cute Boy was bopping his head. I was bopping my head along too. I turned around to see a car waiting at the light. The lady in it was observing the bops, laughing (at us? With us? Who knows). I laughed with the lady, my eyes and hers twinkling together, briefly. She drove off - and the night continued.
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Memory 3: On the equality of all sweet moments
The man in our neighbourhood with a cute lil’ potbelly who basks in the sun in his portable chair, every sunny day of the year.
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A resulting truth:
Unlike what the world of scarcity and “fitting in” tells us, real moments of connection are: deep, abundant like a waterfall, and irreplaceably ours. Even one little moment is a window to the rest- a world of love that is self-evident, never needing to wait, never left wanting.
When was a moment this week or month that you felt such self-evident connection, in the Simple or Big moments?
Much <3,
Raha